~
if this is the only one I get
(and it seems likely it is)
I have no idea what to do with it anymore,
started off with god and woman
myth and matter
but I'm left hollow
wanting to leech the good from this life
(but not end up a sucker)
how am I doing?
shitty fine
looking for that unicorn of purpose
like the rest, I guess
or maybe they've found it
and I haven't got the guts
to look it in the face
(I'm afraid)
afraid I peaked days and months
and years ago
that this is all there is to me (now)
I can barely breathe through the monotony
and I'm left with no fucks to give
I've squandered too many moments
too many choices
(too much of myself...)
but as much as there is fear riding
me to the brink of apathy
there is a thread of anger woven through as well
a quiet rage at myself for
accepting this death life
for getting knocked down
and choosing to lie on the floor
no purpose I can find amidst vinyl and crumbs
I don't really believe in fate
or destiny for that matter
I struggle with faith most days
as it is
yet the afterlife haunts me night and day
in the whispers of what ifs
in the lines on my face
in my dreams that are buried
(alongside me)
I wonder every damn day
will the numbness
creep another inch
or will my rage at last prevail?
- cheers from ground zero
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Heather Hubler
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Comments (45)
Congratulations on the Win!
Whoop woop! Happy you won a prize for this deserving piece Heather! May more bounteous things come your way! ☺️🎉🥳
Congrats on your win!!! This is such a poignant and relatable piece!
Wooohooooo congratulations on your win! 🎉💖🎊🎉💖🎊
Big Congrats on the win!! Beautiful and emotional poem as always. Your writing is always stunning!
Wonderfully written and so relatable. It's easy to get beaten down especially when we compare ourselves to others. But from my point of view, you just keep getting better. You have not peaked in the least. Congratulations on your well deserved win. I'm honored to have my poem listed alongside this fabulous piece.
Congrats, this is great!
Very moving poem. Congrats on your win!
Congratulations on your Win. I expect nothing less from my Soul Sister. Your poem is amazing in so many ways. One of the lines that resonated with me the most: "looking for that unicorn of purpose".
Congrats!!!
You absolutely deserve this win Heather I’m so proud of you and very happy for you!!!!🥹
A well deserved win!!! Congratulations and thank you for being so authentic!
YES FUCK YES CONGRATS FUCK YES FUCK CONGRATS FUCK WELL DONE.
Oh wow! hard relate to so much of this. i sat with this for quite some time: “I struggle with faith most days as it is Yet the afterlife haunts me night and day” a real poke to the heart (poke because gentler than a punch, but the same impact)
Thank you 🎴🎴🎴♦️♦️🃏🟩🟪🟥🟧🟨🟨🟨🟧🟥◻️◼️🔲🔲🔔🔔🔔🎴🎴🀄️🎴🎴🎴♦️♦️🃏🟩🟪🟥🟧🟨🟨🟨🟧🟥◻️◼️🔲🔲🔔🔔🔔🎴🎴🀄️🎴🎴🎴♦️♦️🃏🟩🟪🟥🟧🟨🟨🟨🟧🟥◻️◼️🔲🔲🔔🔔🔔🎴🎴🀄️🎴🎴🎴♦️♦️🃏🟩🟪🟥🟧🟨🟨🟨🟧🟥◻️◼️🔲🔲🔔🔔🔔🎴🎴🀄️🎴🎴🎴♦️♦️🃏🟩🟪🟥🟧🟨🟨🟨🟧🟥◻️◼️
💙💗💗 .💗💗.💗💗💗 CONGRATS 💚💚💚 .💗💚 💚💚💛
Congratulations, Heather, on Top Story and the Leaderboard - 👏🎉🎉
Wooohooooo congratulations on your Leaderboard placement! 🎉💖🎊🎉💖🎊
Stunning work HH! Congrats on your Leaderboard placement! ☺️💪🏾💕
Your writing has such a soothing flow ✨ I could read this again and again.
Congratulations on your leaderboard placement! :D
Returning, Heather, to congratulate you on your leaderboard placement! 🥳 🌸 🌞
Oof! Heavy stuff here, LS! On the other hand, ground zero is a good place to start rebuilding. Congratulations on an awesome piece and Top Story!
Congrats on leaderboard!! I hadn't seen your pieces yet. I'm glad I saw it there! ☺️☺️ Wonderful work!
Very thoughtful.